HOME FOR CHRISTMAS?!?!

My Christmas break plans keep changing… I just can’t decide what to do! There are so many possibilities… and every time I decide on what I want/am going to do it either becomes impossible or I start to question if that’s really what I want to do. But I have to decide fast. Right now I have three options (that I like and am considering): 1^st I could just take a day train to Nepal and get my visa stamped (I have to leave the country every 190 days) and come back and be with the boys, 2^nd I could go to a Thai Island and have a little break, go to the beach and have a little adventure, or lastly I could go HOME! Ahhh….I love even thinking about going home. 

But I need to think this out some pros and cons:

Staying with the boys and just doing a same day train to and from Nepal

                        Pros:                                                                       

~It would be fun to be here for Christmas, plus the boys already think that I will be here for Christmas and were happy that I said I would.

~I love being with the boys

~ Cheapest of the options

~Ummmm…. Basically just because of the boys I would want to do it…

                        Cons:

~I wouldn’t get to see family

~ It would be cold

~All the other volunteers are going to be gone for at least part of the break…I would probably get lonely…

~The train ride would be boring.

Thai Island

                        Pros:

~I could be here for Christmas and leave after, so I would have a vacation and get to be here with the boys for Christmas!

~Beach= warm, sand, water, laying in the sun…. be like home

~Getting my tan back

~ Cheaper than going home (about $300 for the flight and maybe another couple hundred that I would need there)

~Could wear pants that don’t come up past my belly button (and YES that’s a major plus!)

~I really want to go to the Thai Islands…at some point! And I’m so close…

                        Cons:

~I would be by myself so: I would be SUPER lonely

~It would be scary to be alone

~The beach would just be a substitute for home…

~Again, LONELY!

~ I would still be missing home and family

Going HOME

                        Pros:

~Seeing FAMILY!

~Being with friends

~The Beach!

~ Eating the foods I miss…meat!

~ Hot showers, hot long baths, my clothes, not being stared at for my “white skin”

~Getting my tan back

~Getting to hug my mom

~Movies with my sister

~ Dad’s apple cider

~Seeing Paka and Ruth before they leave

~The fact that I’m crying with homesickness right now

~ Being at home!

~Being at home for the Christmas Eve service

~Making cookies with Angela

~Driving a car!

~Seeing Hope, Tyler, Jeremy, Jesse, Hailey and all the other kids back home…J

~I could bring back the stuff I need or want for the boys
~ Sleeping in a soft bed
~Waking up and seeing my family
~Beach with Madie
~Uncle Paul's Christmas bread wonderfulness
~Now this is silly and don't take this wrong BUT to be able to talk to males without worrying that they think I'm flirting and stepping over cultural lines!
~Gingerbread men with Riley
~Waking up and going to sleep with Mama's christmas music
~Christmas dinner
~STOCKINGS!
~The wonderful warmth and breeze of Hawaii
~Hearing "normal" english
~SUSHI
~A break from being teased in a language I don't understand
~Putting my toes in the sand
~did i already say HOT WATER?!
~not being called mam
~having Maile paint my nails
~not having 8 spiders in my room ALWAYS
~ I need to stop I'm in tears missing home...once I start thinking about home all that i miss comes crashing on me. 

                        Cons:

~It would be expensive (the ticket alone would be like $1,700)

~It would be so short…just over two weeks…

~LONG TRAVEL time ALONE…like two days on each side! I would be bored and lonely

~Not being with the boys for Christmas

~ Not an “adventure”

~I feel like I’m being weak for not being unable to stay away from home for the whole time

I want to come home...I mean for Christmas, I’m happy here and I know this is where God wants me. But I’m getting homesick.

I miss my family.

I want to be home for Christmas.

I really, really want to come home.

I think that I know my answer…but that means I need to buy my ticket this week!

Please pray for a supernatural amazing deal on airfare! J and to all you in Hawaii I can’t wait to see you! I’M COMING HOME!!!! I’M COMING HOME!!!!  I'LL BE HOME FOR CHRISTMAS!!!! I'LL BE HOME FOR CHRISTMAS!!! I'LL BE HOME FOR CHRISTMAS!!!!