There is this little girl in playgroup named Kanu Priya. And I love her and she loves me, she was the first of the little ones to cling to me and love me. Everyday she runs up to me, with a huge smile on her face, and jumps into my arms. She sits next to or on my lap all the time and is always at my side. When I correct the homework (they send homework for THREE year olds, it’s just coloring, but still!) she won’t go to class and will sit next to me and “help” me. After I check the homework I put it in the file and hand her the file to close, it makes almost more work for me but she gets so proud helping. And then the other day she took the checked homework from me and put it into the file herself. She got this huge smile and looked up at me for the approval and praise she knew I would have for her.
God gave me this picture in one of my quiet times. That this is how we (God and me) are. He’s letting me sit next to him, carefully giving me little projects and allowing me to help him. Even though I make mistakes and it’s more work allowing me to be involved than Him just doing it himself. But he showed me just as I enjoy Kanu Pryia’s company and love God also enjoys me. And slowly I will get to the place where I actually am helping God. It was really amazing, just to see how much God loves me and that he has called me simply to love him, to love being with him, and to cheerfully do the little things he gives me.
He also really spoke to me about how much he does. He does the work and gives me a tiny bit of the work to do, and so I can’t feel responsible for the work. How things end up aren’t up to me, I’m only responsible for “closing the snap”. And he has everything under control.
It was a good quiet time!
That's really amazing. Wow I miss you. I miss talking to you about quiet times and the stuff we're learning.
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