EEEEEEEEWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Just thought I should share some about me conquering my fears.

 Fear number one: heights.  But I have conquered. I now climb up to our roof easily and even can come down with minimal hesitation. To get to the roof I have to climb onto the rail on our second floor lani, from here I hold onto the pole and swing my leg up to this little ledge below the roof, then pull myself up, and step up to the roof. Getting down is scary because you have to just blindly put your legs down making sure you don’t fall by holding onto the pole. But anyways now I can do it! With almost no fear (the other night I did it in the dark!). 

Fear number two: definitely the bigger fear: spiders. If you know me well at all, you know how spiders terrify me! But I was pretty proud of myself, not screaming when I see them and they really are EVERYWHERE, being able to kill them (yes my fear was big enough that I couldn’t kill them), not screaming when I see the spiders that are always in the bathroom (no matter how many times I kill them), not freaking out when I walked through a web. Really I felt like I had finally gotten over my fear but that delusion came crashing down this morning. What happened? Well I went into the bathroom started filling up a bucket of water (our toilet doesn’t flush, we have to use a bucket to flush it), look back at the bucket and see a huge black mass on the wall. Then I realize that the mass is probably fifteen or twenty GROWN spiders!! Not babies just hatched, this was a little spider convention. And they weren’t the daddy longlegs—they were the ones that are really ugly with thick, black circles of bodies and long dangling legs. Shivers. My first thought was “I’ve been lied to”. See everyone has always told me that spiders don’t live in families, don’t have “friends” wouldn’t come to attack me if I killed one of their friends. But that mass, that was a family spiders. So I of course screamed, ran out of the bathroom and tried to decide what to do. I was alone in the house. After a few minutes of courage building I ventured into the bathroom armed with a slipper. Hoping that somehow they would already be dead, unfortunately no. So I braved the moving mass of legs and slammed my slipper in the middle. Scary! It was like a movie from all sides of my shoe spiders went running. That set me off screaming again. I threw my slipper as a spider crawled up from it towards my hand. Now I was unarmed. The slipper was no longer my weapon but a trap. I picked up the bucket of water and threw the water against the wall…really sometimes I just don’t think! A wave of water and spiders came rushing back at me after hitting the wall, once again sending me screaming out of the room. Grabbing another slipper I again venture in to finish the job. Slapping somewhat randomly against the walls and floor I finally freed the bathroom of the spiders…at least I hope!